2 posts tagged “mother”

Four days to go and things have gotten a lot calmer at work. Last week was crazy, causing blood pressure spikes and what not but its over. Things have calmed down and the end is in sight. The light can be seen at at the end of the tunnel. The personalities around here have mellowed out, the bickering has come to an end. And that's mainly because some people choose not to interact with others like they used to. Doesn't phase me one bit. I only have to see one of my co-workers again after next Monday and being that she's the reason I'm on this planet I really don't mind *wink*

The adventure of working with my mom is coming to an end. I'm surprised it went as well as it did. During these past few months I've learned more about her and our relationship has grown a lot. The main thing I'll take away from this experience of working with her is now I know how much she admires me not only as her daughter but also as a person. Our relationship has been a rollercoaster ride over the years. And as I've grown, our relationship has changed, unfortunately not always for the better. Now being equipped with a better understanding of who I am as a woman and a single parent it's easier for me to put myself in her shoes and see where she's coming from.

Since I moved back here from Omaha I've cleared out a lot of my "mommy" issues. That was a difficult yet much needed process and we're both benefiting from the results. Are we the best of friends? No. But our relationship is better. This past weekend me, her and my sister were chilling at home eating dinner. The whole crew chilling and eating together at home. All family like. Hopefully this rare occurrence will become a more regular one.

I'm moving forward as this job will very soon be behind me. I have a new job and management there seems to be on the ball. Time will tell how all of that will work out. Once again I'll be the new kid on the block. It won't be the last time. Hopefully for this career field it will be though. The wheels are in motion for me to get back to school.

New job - check. Going back to school - check. Moving over the summer - check. Divorce rolling along smoothly - double check. Everything is running smoothly, I really couldn't ask for more.

Getting back to the music - a new mix is in the works and hopefully we'll be back to our regularly scheduled programming soon.

"Bless a thing and it will bless you. Curse it and it will curse you...If you bless a situation, it has no power to hurt you, and even if it is troublesome for a time, it will gradually fade out, if you sincerely bless it." -- Emmet Fox

I found this quote today. And as I've been told before, I didn't find it by accident...

I didn't get it. The supposedly guaranteed job fell through. *sigh* But doors open and they close. Soon the right door will open for me. I was mad about it for a little while. That's until I realized I didn't really want to work there in the first place. It's the same environment as a previous job and I vowed I wouldn't return to a place like that. And I won't.

The only reason why I convinced myself that it would work is because it seemed like an obvious transition... just follow the clients. And it took a lot of work to convince myself that I would be able to tolerate that atmosphere again.

Getting mad about it won't solve anything. It definitely won't get me any closer to another job. It's just another door that was closed and so I'm moving on. Over time the realization will hit that a mistake was made but by then I will have moved on to something better. That's why the door was closed in the first place. Because something better is in the works.

The fact that my mother is full of positive advice... *blink blink* thanks to Oprah is all at once weird yet reassuring. If she's full of positivity something hella good is going to come out of all of this. My path is veering into a new direction now, one in which I'm not too sure where I'm going. But fear is not coming along with me on this ride.

Life has something in store for me. My job... I let it consume me. I'm way overdue for moving on. When I left my last job I knew then that I needed to get out of this industry. But I felt that I needed this job. So now the universe is taking it from me. This is the clue that I need to refocus my priorites. I had been putting my job first and almost everything else on hold. And not getting the "guaranteed" job - it's just unmistakeable proof that its time for me to move in a new direction... through a new door.