2 posts tagged “2008”

It's the end of the year... ok technically beginning of 08... and I need to reflect on where I've been and where I'm headed. Reflect... not dwell. There's a difference between the two. And even though the '07 didn't go exactly as planned, it went the way it should have because I'm where I need to be at this point in time. And by that I mean the lessons needed to be learned. People needed to leave my life in order for me to make room for new people to enter into my life. Especially my newfound twitter fam *smooches*. Things needed to be dealt with and I had some growing up to do.

I had to journey through the pain to return to my joy. A difficult process but lessons learned don't require repeating. Falling down ain't falling down if you don't cry when you hit the floor. (Thank you Ms Keys) So I have dropped baggage that has been carried longer than needed. I turned 30 which of itself didn't impart a magical dose of wisdom on the exact day of my birth but I have changed. I am a different person than I was a year ago - stronger - I can see those differences clearly and the progress I've made this year has been good.

There's still some work to be done. I'm not perfect, yet at the same time not striving for perfection either. More changes are needed and I am no longer afraid of what life could possibly throw at me because this year alone has been one long test of what I'm capable of. I now know what I can handle and it always ends up being more than what I give myself due credit for. Whatever doesn't kill me can only make me stronger. I have more faith in myself and my faith in God, in spirit is unbreakable. I now know I am loved unconditionally because I am the one giving that love to myself. God is within me helping me shine my light and spread my love and my wings, dissipating any fears that might still linger in the darkness. I'm loving life now and am so grateful to have made it through this year even with the lesson I had to learn.

luv Sels

2007:

I can't say I'm sorry to see you go. No hard feelings, it's just time to move on. We've had our ups and downs. But that's nothing unusual. As one door closes another always opens. It's just that you've been a revolving door at times. I've learned a lot from you so I'm taking those lessons with me. I'm leaving behind some things too. Mainly baggage that doesn't need to be carried as I move forward. Yes, I'm moving forward, moving along and letting go of what could potentially drag me down. But nothing against you personally, please believe. We knew our time was short anyway. We knew one day we'd have to part. And it's not with sadness on my end either. So with one foot out the door I'm saying goodbye 2007, don't fret I'll look back from time to time, only to make sure I'm not having any repeat performances. Got to keep it moving in 08.

luv Sels